oh lemme tell you it is great to be back in the dorms.... many may not like going home becuase they dont want to leave their loved ones (and who can blame 'em?) but for me the dorms is my place to be. so yeah it is exciting to see all my suitemates!




i am sooo sad, i found out earlier that one of my suitemates room was broken into and all her valuables were stolen.... that shit straight out sucks! i just dunno how it could have happned. the main door was locked, the suite door was locked, and her room door was locked. i think it was part of an inside job. sighs!

TGIF!!!!


i cant wait to go back to my dorms!

damn it all! i hate my grades. i hate that i didnt get what i wanted... my mom is pissed becuase my brother is an idiot... i mean can anything else go wrong? sheesh! oh wait maybe my supervisor doesnt want to make me manager... he did sound a little different when i talked to him yesterday... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!

hmm... i got to work today... at sdsu. i have never worked at thier sites before... this will be interesting... :)

hmmmmm.... nothing exciting at home... soooooooooooooooooooo bored.... im stuck babysitting my niece! it could be worse i could be at the family business all day. i found out yesterday that my brother is actually going through the divorce.... *thinks* its about fucking damn time! god... how many times did i tell that boy to leave her? but noooooo no one listens to me. i knew it was bound to happen... so why the fuck now? all i know is that my sis in law is cheating on my bro... (surprise, surprise) and now he is leaving her ugly bitch ass. im really worried about what might happen to my niece, i mean she is sooo happy staying with my parents. i dont even want to think if my sis in law got custody... alrighty time to go bye bye! byes!

awww.. yes... im back in the beautiful city of san diego. quite nice i have to say. i was gone for the whole weekend. i went to medieval times for my boy's bday and then went to knotts's the next day for our 6 months anniversary (YEAH BABY!) it was fun, i was very tired afterwards... i was soooo tired that i just woke up from 12 hrs of sleep.... mmmmmm sleep is sooooo good! so yeah i had a bunch of fun and im glad i spent it with my man. :)

im back home for the week, which means no internet for me. i must instead go to the puvbic library and use the comp for a while... sighs it sucks!

btw, this keyboard sucks!

ROAD TRIP!!!! YAY!!!!! im going to knotts and medieval times !!! ill be back sunday night!

bluedimplett: hey have u been reading m y journal?
dekanax: Oh, not recently! I've been busy with finals and whatnot.
bluedimplett: oh ok... so u didnt read all the stuff about the pigeon then
dekanax: No.
dekanax: But if there's "stuff about the pigeon"...
bluedimplett: lol
dekanax: I must say, I worry about you. ;P
bluedimplett: lol... well u see
bluedimplett: there has been this pigeon that hangs out on my balcony, and so i have bitched about it... its the same pigeon btw
dekanax:



bluedimplett: too many errands... so little time... luckily my bf has no classes today
bluedimplett: makes things easier
dekanax: Then get on it, yo!
dekanax: Ooh.
dekanax: Make him your errand-biatch!
bluedimplett: LOL
dekanax: Make him wear a collar that says "Property of Marcy, if found, return to Muir Tioga Hall, 11th floor"... ;P
bluedimplett: LOL
bluedimplett: hmmm i like that
dekanax: You should consider it. ;P
bluedimplett: nah im not mean like that
dekanax: It's not mean, it's funny!
bluedimplett: im gonna be his bitch tommrrow
dekanax: Yes, but it's his birthday, so it's allowed.

# posted by Marcy @ 6:32:00 PM |

sleep is good!

this happened sunday night at the burnout center:

Ali: (gummy bear in her mouth) hey Jo im gonna eat you!
Jo: go ahead EAT ME!

the pigeon(bubbles) came back last night... i saw bubbles at the same exact corner (where all its shit is) and it slept there again. i woke up in the morning and bubbles was gone. im starting to believe that bubbles is getting free housing... thats not fair damnit i want to be a pigeon now.

you what bubbles reminds me of? bubbles reminds me of when i was young (6-8) when we still had a palm tree in my backyard. my daddy who is a very nice caring man use to and still does take care of poor homeless animals. we have had variuos cats, dogs, and rabbits hang around the house he would always take care of them. but at one point we had a massive amount of pigeons hang around in the palm tree. my dad being the nice caring man that he is, he would take leftover tortillas and break them into various pieces and then go to the backyard and throw them on the ground and the pigeons would fly down from the palm tree to eat them. in the beginning there a few pigeons, but with time there were over 100 of them. yeah it was fun while that lasted. mother hated them, she claimed that they were ruining her plants with all their freaking poop... lol. so they got rid of the palm tree and little by little they all went away :(

so yeah seeing bubbles reminds me of my childhood and the good times... sighs... i miss my childhood sometimes. what i would do to be 5 again. when time was filled with laughter and no worries about whether or not i payed bills, if i finished all my hw, no FINALS!, no work... mom use to cook homemade meals everyday, daddy use to take me to mc donald's every paycheck, my family was one piece 9 people lived there... kinda like full house... j/k... yeah those were the good times. *sighs* now its not like that, we all went our different directions, all my brothers and i grew up. my parents are by themselves in the house my mom occupies herself with my little niece and the business, while my father works full time as a security guard and with the free time occupies himself with house chores. i miss my family... all of them... just one day i want all of us to get together like the old times and be happy with the presence of our love in the house that we grew up in.

what i would do to be 5 again...

damn bubbles!

i should stop being all emotional now.

i woke up this morning at 720am and i noticed that the pigeon was gone... this makes me sad becuase i was begining to like it. i do not appreciate the fact that it left me a pile of shit in the corner of my balcony. i hope that matinenence shows up to clean it. on a happier note i realized this morning that i have a 2 wk sprng break becuase i was done with finals on monday... isnt that just damn cool? no hating on me ok? im sure that later on i shall pay for this 2 wk vacation. ooh yeah one more thing i decided to take the manager position... wish me luck with that shit!

ok sooooo, there has been this pigeon hanging around in my balcony. i noticed it for the first time the other day. its an interesting pigeon, becuase it has 2 ID bracelets, and from what i have noticed one of them is green with the number 3 on it and the other ID is a gold bracelet with some possible writing that i cannot make out. anyways i really think that there is something wrong with the pigeon becuase it just looks at me and does not fly away. it could be pregnant. before today the pigeon had been in and out, but today seems to be a different day. i noticed it around 4pm and it has not left since. its no longer hanging out on the perch, now the pigeon is on my balcony floor sleepiing... will it ever leave?? i really dont know what to do at all. *sighs*

ugh.... i have been up since 6am..... boooooooooooooooo. i had to go to work at 7am till 12:30pm. i was soooooooooo bored out of my mind. for some random reason im tired... i dunno why though. i had a good amount of sleep. my supervisor keeps bugging me to take the manager position..... should i? *sighs*

Me: Good morning, Tanner!
Tanner: oh hey Marcy how are finals?
Me: I'm soooo done with them.
Tanner: (in confusion) i dont get it, how is that possible?
Me: well i only had one and im done!
Tanner: wow, before noon.... mad props!
Me: I KNOW!

hmmmmm...
i think im the only person that can actually say that im done with finals at 10am on the first day of finals!

woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! party!!!! yeah thats right i'm fucking done with finals!!!! yeah baby! i am the fucking bomb!!! mauhahhahahahah ... ah yes.... it feels great to be done! anyways i do have to bitch about the final that i did have... i took 2 fucking hours of writing, writing, wirting, in spanish... ugh! nothing but spanish essays! that is just damn wrong.... at one point i found myself with wanting to shoot someone! :)... oh wells its over now! woohoo!!! im gonna get a C+ in that class but i dont give a rats ass! its all about taking the class P/NP!

bah! i dont need a quiz to tell me im the perfect gf... of course im perfect *evil laugh* just kidding!

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Signs that your going through "Angels in America" run crew withdrawel:

1. you find yourself wearing blacks.
2. you still remember the lines to the play.
3. you quote the lines on your blog/aim profile.
4. you tell your friends that you can't hang out with them becuase your busy till midnight.
5. you see the actors on campus and tell them you'll see them tonight.
6. you bitch about your lack of sleep claiming that you only got 4-5 when in reality you had 8-10 the night before.
7. the only people who you think about are other run crew members... you look forward to seeing them tonight.
8. you show up at the call time thinking that there is going to be show tonight.
9. you find yourself at the cafeteria packing snacks for a long night.
10. you skip theatre lab with the excuse that you have a show tonight.

oh look at the preeeeeeeeeety colors!

How evil are you?
HOME

so i woke up at 630 am to take my cousin to her PSAT's and yeah lemme tell you i have been awake since. im having difficulties going back to sleep! damnit all to hell! im hungry and the stupid cafeteria does not open till 10am... *sighs*

then i look at you, and the world is alright with me, just one look at you, and i know its gonna be a lovely day! god i love that song! its midnight.... nothing to bitch about.... do you?

SomebodySaveMe12: I 'm suffering from withdrawal from my marcy fix.
bluedimplett: i dont get it
SomebodySaveMe12: I;m addicted to you
bluedimplett: are you?
SomebodySaveMe12: yes, your affection is a drug

today is the last day of tenth week... sighs you know what that means? it means it is time to start studying for finals. but it also means that i dont have to work and also that i dont have such a hectic schedule. anywho im kinda sad that the quarter is over, i mean i actually liked my classes this quarter... i sometimes wish that every quarter would be like this one.. *sighs* oh wells.

hmm it is the afternoon and i have done so much shit... and i havent even begun the day... i still have to do lunch with vanessa or whatever it may be. then i have to take a nap or else ill just pass out for the performance that i have tonight ... yes thats right tonight is the big night for THE FOOSH!: Stackin' the Deck. i just cant wait for that! so yeah.... i already did one performance today i performed my monologue..... it was a great performance! i got me an A+ woohoo..... so you wanna read my A+ work? ok im glad you do .... here it is!


Mirror Mirror on the wall…
Show me who am I not supposed to be at all

What are you looking at?
Eh, vato que me miras?
Shoot you better not be looking at me?
Oh hells nah!
You better stop mad dogging me like that,
Excuse me? You better say that to my face
Chingale … siguele y veras
Oh no u didn’t!
Hey!
Don’t think that I’m gonna let you get away with it!
What you say about me?
Oh I know u didn’t just call me fat…
Orale tu empesastes mija, y ahora te vas a repentir.
I’m gonna kick you ass
You just lucky I’m being held back
Let me go!!! dejame!!!
Do you know who I am?
Do you???
Damn right I know who I am
What kinda question is that?
I’m… I’m… I’m…

What does it matter to you who I am?
Oh god who am I?

Why do I have all this ridiculous stuff on?
I don’t want to look like this anymore
I don’t want to look like what society assumes for me to look like
Just because I grew up in the ghetto does not mean I should look like it
My neighborhood does not define me, I’m not no puta
I didn’t get pregnant at age 15. I had way too much going for me, and I still do

I don’t dance Mexican folklore for tourists
Yes, I do dance folklore but it’s because I wanted to learn more about my culture. I did it for personal gratification.
I’m much more than what you think.
Maybe if I close my eyes it will all go away… maybe I will be me and this person that shows on the outside will disappear.

I’m still ghetto!
How am I supposed to get out of this?
I know who I am!
God I hate these nails they are so long and blue!
I never have nails because I have a tendency of biting them off.
These bracelets there are so many I don’t need any of them
The only purpose this is good for is to blindfold people and have them hit a piñata
Dale, Dale, no pierdas el tino porque si lor pierdes, pierdes el camino.
I don’t want my hair to feel like sticks,
I want my hair to be down, soft, touchable and I still want it to be curly but not as much.
I love my hair… you just want to pet it... Look I’m petting it right now, aren’t you jealous of my hair?
I love the fainting red color that compliments the tone of my face.
This make up is useless, why should I ever bother to wear it, it makes me look like a bitch.
I’m not a bitch.
I’m a really happy go lucky girl.
I love my natural look.
I especially love the freckles aren’t they wonderful?
My birthmarks that are all over my face almost look like stars in the sky, and my dimples are they not the most adorable things you have ever seen?
I love that they light up my face when I smile.
Look at this mouth isn’t it amazing? I can speak faster than a speeding bullet…. Sometimes I can’t keep up with myself especially with 2 languages.
My mouth amazes me.
I’m just the sweetest lil thing with out make up on.
This cross symbolizes my religious preference…. I was baptized catholic, but I do not believe in what the Catholic Church believes in.
What’s with all this stuff that shows my identity?
Its like look at me my name is Marcy!
I mean what if I don’t want the stranger to know?
Well, with this stuff I can’t hide my identity.
What is my identity?
What does it consist of? Name? Age? Sex? Neighborhood? Ethnicity? Personality? Education? And or Stereotypes?
My name is Marcia Rodriguez, I’m 19 years old, and I’m a sophomore at UCSD.
Si, lo oyistes bien. Yo soy una mujer Mexicana/Cubana quien esta estudiando en la Universidad.
I’m proud.
I know the struggles my parents went through to get me here where I am.
My father came from overseas escaping political ideologies or maybe he was running away from all they women that wanted him.
While my mother jumped over a fence but not just any fence the border… no, no, no, she didn’t go to taco bell… stupid Chihuahua giving false information about Hispanics …“Yo quiero taco bell” yeah I can say more than that.
My mother was escaping the poor life and rebelled against what she was told who to be.
She broke many stereotypes and opened the doors for me.
Now it’s my turn to do the same.
I have broken many stereotypes that have been placed on me.
I’m not who they think I am.
I’m just a simple girl with a simple mind.
You know who I am?
I’m a strong independent Latina,
Who has acquired three great cultures,
I’m creative, daring, courageous, sensitive, loving, loyal, determined I have limitless possibilities.
I’m a barrier breaker… I break everything I even have broken boys hearts.
I’m a wellspring of optimism and energy.
I’m my own home entertainment center! Who needs TV when I got me? I can have my own sitcom it would be called “ everybody loves Marcy”
I’m a Kaleidoscope of talents and interests, I’m woman a human I’m important.
I’m unstoppable, unbeatable and I’m cute as hell.

hello everybody! it is 10:41pm and im still wide awake... this would be a bad thing because i gotta wake up at 6 am to go work and the like. ick! anyways i have finished writing my monologue and well it is sad to say that i havent memorized it yet... uh oh.... oh wells ill be fine and dandy! yay me! lol so yeah i dont have much to bitch about. i do have some cool news... i was talking to my supervisor and he asked me what i favorite restaurant around la jolla was and then i said TGIF and then he is like ok. i asked him why on earth he asked me such a question and he responded with ," oh becuase im going to give youa bonus for being such a lifesaver and covering the 7am shifts" i was like so cool man! so yeah there be my happiness!

wtf? its 630am and here i am not getting ready for my 7am shift..... i guess that would be becuase im tired and dont feel like going to work.... sighs. i guess i should get ready and go damnit! big sigh! *yawns*

and then?

sooooo everyone and thier mothers have an online journal.... so i thought to myself why not me? so now here i am with a freaking online journal.... yeah its sooooo exciting!!!!! *jumps up and down with glee* anywho.... im procastinating. gosh im just such a bad person shame on me! im sooo tired right now, i have been up since 6am and i havent taken a nap just yet, although i did try to. im just so unsuccessful at trying to take naps, its like my body hates naps. i went to work at 7am and then stayed till 1130am.... lemme tell you i was damn hungry becuase i didnt eat breakfast but then i went to the food place here at ucsd. i decided that i was in the mood for some chinese and so i went to panda express. i didnt want their stupid 2 item special. all i wanted was white rice and some chow mein (is that too much to ask for?) so i told the women thats what i wanted (keep in mind that its almost noon which is lunctime) the woman gave me what i wanted. but, then the stupid manager lady was all like ,"oh you cant do that" and then she gave the lady who served me a very dirty look. i was going to say that i would take a stupid side item just so she would shut up. but nooooooo instead she goes over to the employee ( knowing that their are like 15 people in line waiting) and she proceeds to yell at the poor woman who by coincidance is a hispanic woman that hardly understands english. i was sooo sad, i mean does the manager not realize that im watching what she is doing? i mean wtf you shouldnt yell at an emplyee on the floor. its just wrong! becuase of this, the line that was running smoothly had backed up alot and people were getting annoyed. after the bitch ass manager finished yelling at the employee she made her go somewhere else so she would not fuck up again; not only that she starts to take her anger off at everybody who have done nothing. this all becuase of me.... man i feel bad... i swear! but im really mad at that asshole manager! maybe ill complain later. i guess i should consider myself lucky that i have one of the best supervivors/manager ever. they are sooo nice and understanding and most importantly chill! :) yep i love my job depsite the fact that i wake up at 6am for it. actually im starting to like it becuase i have discovered that mornings are beautiful! i cant believe that i had been missing out for awhile! eh oh wells! ok i guess im done bitching for now and getting my thoughts together... maybe ill write my poem now!