ok seriuosly... im starting to believe that im a control freak... am i??? i dont want to be... i just consider myself an independent happy person.... oy

hmmmmmm i am red.... i always thought i wasnt like this.... oh wells just a quiz.... maybe i really am red i just dont know it...

ok so last night... i was super pissed at my bf..... hmmmm today??? well.... everything is better..... he definatly knows how to ask
for forgiveness.... wanna know what he did??? welll too bad im not going to say.... you have to ask in person or IM.... teehee :)

on a side note: karisma ..... i was reading your blog.... and i noticed that you used a word wrong the word "cotización" does not mean "quote" actually i forgot what it really means. but if you want to say "quote" in spanish the word is "cita" yes yes, that also means "appointment" but it also means "quote" this is the word that is used by everyone in my spanish class. so if i were you i wouldnt trust dictionary .com so much.... trust me. i have written enough in spanish to realized this.... lol adios niña!

Guys are such morons!!!! i mean seriuosly... ugh! here is an example of an idiot. (this is a real convo between me and a guy i USED to date... you can see why in this convo)

boxcarbeerman: Hey.
bluedimplett: hi

- here evrything is fine thus far (although i had ignored for at least a month)

boxcarbeerman: how is everything with you?
boxcarbeerman: Your profile seas that your single? ARE YOU???

- ok, let's start off by everything he did right: asking me how im doing. Now what he did wrong: mispelled "seas"(says). The first thing he attacks is to know whether it is true that im single. (becuase obviously he was thinking of asking me out... ugh!) Oh i love how he capitalizes what is important to him... which is translation of desparate!

bluedimplett: it does?
boxcarbeerman: Yes it dose.
bluedimplett: i havent changed it?
boxcarbeerman: Cool.

- ok. i say "it does" i spelled does correctly and then he responds with "dose"? (yes i know your thinking,maybe its a typo... he always spells it like that. As you have seen and as Karisma knows... people who mispell words bother me. ESPECIALLY easy words. THEN he says cool for no appreant reason.

bluedimplett: im still taken
bluedimplett: it was 8 months yesterday
boxcarbeerman: Cool.
bluedimplett: yeppers
bluedimplett: u have a gf?
boxcarbeerman: nope.
bluedimplett: i see
bluedimplett: seeing anyone?
boxcarbeerman: Nope not rilly.

- he mispelled "really" ugh!

bluedimplett: why?
boxcarbeerman: Why what?
bluedimplett: why arent you seeing anyone?
boxcarbeerman: Well I try to go out on dates and all but all the girls I meet dont want to be exclusive

- he is sooooo lying his ass off. i KNOW for a fact that he doesn liek being exclulsive... or at leas when i was with him he didnt want it.... but ever since i have had a bf. he wants to be exclusive with a girl.

bluedimplett: ohhhh really???
bluedimplett: normally they want to be exclusive
bluedimplett: and why all of a sudden do you want to be exclusive?
boxcarbeerman: I don't know.

- here he is showing the true side. he doesnt want to be exclsuive. he wants the sex.

bluedimplett: i see
bluedimplett: well i cant help on that one
boxcarbeerman: ya
bluedimplett: i dont have any friends that want a bf

- this is me setting up what will turn into an ugly waste of my time convo.

boxcarbeerman: What about any friends that want to just go out and date and do what ever?

- didnt he just say that he wants exclusiveness? here he is unfolding and showing what he is really looking for.hmmmm "and do whatever"? hmmmmm..... translation : i want sex... im desparate.

bluedimplett: i do have some
bluedimplett: but
bluedimplett: they arent your type

- i fucked that one up..... this is where it started to get ugly.

boxcarbeerman: How do you know?
bluedimplett: or i mean, they like frat boys

- this is me making up for the previuos comment.... but then i made the mistake of brining up frat boys.. or in the fact that i have no such friends like that... i was making up BS.

boxcarbeerman: I can drink.
boxcarbeerman: and do all the stuff frat boys can do.

- here he is obviously being stereotypical. im sure he can do all that. when i mentioned frat boys i was thiking about the ones here at UCSD where they are not as bad as the state ones.

bluedimplett: which is what?
boxcarbeerman: What do frat boys do?
bluedimplett: yes im asking you that
boxcarbeerman: Throw partys get drunk one night stands LOL

- IDIOT, igorant, moron, etc...

bluedimplett: well
bluedimplett: there is more than that
boxcarbeerman: What else?

- here he is expecting me to give a grocery list of what frat boys do... sheah right im not going to.

boxcarbeerman: I'll let you know if I can do it.
bluedimplett: they do community service
bluedimplett: they are actaully nice guys
bluedimplett: very smart

- but i did, at least the good qualities they have here at UCSD. so he can see what they do.

boxcarbeerman: Iam verry active I got two a's in school and I work full time.
boxcarbeerman: And you know personaly that Iam a verry nice guy.

- active??? whatever.... everytime i ask him what he is doing he always answer with "nothing" then proceeds toask me out becuase he is sooo bored. And OH boy 2 A's???? oh yeah.... thats sooo great... he has been in school for like 2 yrs. he bitches about 3 pg papers. Oh AND he works full time.... YAY i choose him! and yes i do know his personality.... umm yeah he is nice, but he is an IDIOT!!!

bluedimplett: but... ur not a frat guy
bluedimplett: i mean theres something about those dam greek letters

- i think that the greek letters have a high impact of how people think of them. YES the letters make a difference.

boxcarbeerman: But I can do everything they can do.
boxcarbeerman: I can probibly do everything that they can do 10 times better then they can do it.

- oh you can??? what is he talking about??? getting drunk faster? or do more community service?

bluedimplett: but you dont have the letters
bluedimplett: yeah... its the letters
bluedimplett: people are still like that you know

- hehe.... tis true though right???

boxcarbeerman: WHO GIVES A SHIT ABOUT LETTERS I"LL GO GET THEM MADE

- are we angry and sexually frustrated? hmmm bad move... getting them done?

bluedimplett: ur still not in an official frat
boxcarbeerman: you can get anything you want you just need enough money.

- so now it is about the money.... money= happy girl? hmm in some cases, but these girls are no good. they are just goldiggers.

bluedimplett: what are you talking about?
boxcarbeerman: I can get greek letters.
bluedimplett: iknow
bluedimplett: but u could get yourslef in trouble
boxcarbeerman: No I wont get my self in trouble.

- ummm yes you can u fucking asshole! gosh! im not even going to even bother why the above is just plain stupidity.... ugh!

bluedimplett: uh yes you can...if a guy in that frat sees you wearing thier letters ... you are asking for it

- im not completly sure what could happen, but it is wrong. its almost like a gang....

boxcarbeerman: You don't have to worry about that becouse if he trys something with me I'll just beat his ass to the ground.
bluedimplett: lol
bluedimplett: i guess
bluedimplett: you dont get the picture though

- hmmmmm ... first of all i DONT care about you. second of all.... your an idiot once again... beat his ass up? your trying to use his frat to get girls... he'll kick your ass. and here i am trying to make him understand.

boxcarbeerman: No I get the pic.
boxcarbeerman: You dont get the pic.

- excuse me? ugggggggghhhhh!

bluedimplett: what is that?
bluedimplett: well... what is it that i dont see or seem to understand?
boxcarbeerman: I don't have to stay on campous or anything.
bluedimplett: for what?

- what the hell is he talking about?

boxcarbeerman: You know what never mind.

- and then he realizes i have won this battle.... YES! what a wuss!

bluedimplett: ok fine..... but im just going to stay confused
boxcarbeerman: Well then you do that.
boxcarbeerman: Iam tired of wasting my breath on you.

- yay...i get to be confused... if your going to combine i and am... do it right "I'm" ugh.... awwww he is tired of wasting his breath on me.... what a pity :(

bluedimplett: oh really?
boxcarbeerman: Ya rilly.

- mispelled really again!!!!

bluedimplett: what did i do to you?
bluedimplett: i guess i dont deserve an explanation?

- here he hadnt responded in like 10 min or so.

boxcarbeerman: Iam just sick of sitting hear wasteing my time on the topic about girls becouse you arnt going to hook me up with anyone of your friends So why should I waste my time.
bluedimplett: ohhhh.... so we cant be friends... all you want is for me to hook you up with some pusssy?

- awwww no pussy for you!!! what a bummer. mispelled : becuase, aren't, wasting, and I'm. hmmmm now the tru him comes out... he does want the nookie!

boxcarbeerman: No I want to be friends but it's not like we hang out anymore.
bluedimplett: well.... id love to, but ur version of hangang out is making out and doing stuff that i wont do becuase im happily taken with my bf.

- i had to reiterate to him im taken. and let me tell you i am right... all he wants is to play around. how does he expect me to hook him up with myh friends?? my friend deserve much better than him.

boxcarbeerman: No that's not true.
boxcarbeerman: you just asume that becouse that's all we use to do before HE came along.

- riiiiiiiiiiigggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhttttttttttt!!!! guh.. he mispelled the same thinsg wrong again! .... hmmmmm do i sense some jealousy from him??? "before HE came along"

boxcarbeerman: We can hang out and go see a movie or go to the mall.

- translation to the above: yes, ill lure you to the movies, and then try to have sex with you in the theatre or at least get a blowjob.

bluedimplett: well.... how can i really know thats what you want?
bluedimplett: i mean.... your right thats all we did before
bluedimplett: and.. i dont think my bf woould like me hanging out with you.

- i know sam wouldnt mind... he trusts me, but its just wrong!

bluedimplett: would you like ur gf hangin out with some guy she used to fool around with?
boxcarbeerman: I wouldent care as long as they didet do anything.

- yes you would!!! god... anyone who actaully cares would mind.

bluedimplett: and i think its disrespectful to him

- it is disrespecful.... dont you agree?

boxcarbeerman: See I can trust my girlfriend

- BS!!!

bluedimplett: well... i dont think mine trusts me...
bluedimplett: i dont blame him


- ok really... he does but i had to say that he didnt.



Anyways.. i have ranted.... i have nothing else to say. hmmm im in the mood to get drunk.

- “Knowledge is power and my vagina is power.” – Yahira LTSP 50C lecture



this is based on a reading we did about dictatorships, and how women act upon it. so my TA was explaning about this line above... and i liked it.

agh!!! its friday, and i have much to do this wekend.... one of them being to figure out my damn life.... in order to graduate and what not . *sighs*

can you tell that im bored and procastinating?

this is my way to live

What about yours?

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OMG!!!! could this day get any worse???

first of all im sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy..... so i went to work and blah, blah, blah. went to class where we had a really good discussion about graffiti and art versus the government. THEN... went to section where i learned NOTHING!!! as always.

i went to go get lunch cause i was hungry. since of course it is lunch hour, the place is freaking packed. so i went over to the deli section becuase i didnt want to wait for the freaking grill. anyways it was my turn to get my sandwhich (i always get them vegitarian becuase i dont like the meat that they use). and the lady gave me the dirtiest looked, like if i was a wierdo or something... that was annoying..... ugh!

after dealing with the evil lady, i went to go sit down and settle down. here i was enjoying my sandwhich when these guys were standing right behind me. they were yapping about where to sit and what not and all of a sudden i heard a "omg look at you" from one of the guys, and of course i was curiuos to knnow what they were talking about and so i looked up. i looked at him and i saw that there was ketchup on his arm and then he looked at me and said, " look what you did" (i was confused.... what the hell did i do? especially becuase i didnt have ketchup on me.) after that i ignored his remark he walked away, and then i noticed on the floor that there was a packet of ketchup that the idiot stepped on... what a moron.

after lunch i walked over to academic advising becuase i needed to talk to a counselor because i was sooo confused about what the freak to do. i seriuosly waited over a fucking hour to talk to a specific counselor and in the end i didnt get to becuase of some stupid reason, i was soooo pissed becuase i was lost and confused about what classes to take next quarter. so i ended up talking to someone who didnt help me at all.... ( on the good side i think i finally figured it out.... i hope)

i went to history class real late becuase of the acdemic advising thing... i went to go pick up my midterm that i turned in like 2wks ago... turns out that he "forgot" the papers... UGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! annoyance!

after history i went to philosphy class (icky, icky, icky, class) i also was going to get my midterm, but did we? NOOOOO... bastards!

agh! in the end... it was a not so great day...i could go on but.... ill save you your sanity.... sighs!!! when will this alll end!!!!

Earlier this morning I was at the swap meet (it wasnt the regular swap meet I go to), it NEVER occured to me that people sell bettas there or in general live animals aside from birds (gosh, I saw animals that I have never seen at a local petstore, like scorpions etc.)  
 
Anyways... these bettas were of course in the small cups but they looked much worse than the ones you see at Malwart, petco, or petsmart (my local petsmart has the bettas in water with bettamix). These poor bettas were practically dead, when I would pick up a cup they would barely move (they were obvoiusly sick) I was very sad. But, there was this booth that made my number one list of cruelty to bettas.
 
I was getting ready to leave the swap meet, and I noticed this booth near the exit. I saw the darn peace lily with betta setup. Of course, this is enough to infuriate me, but I thought that maybe the saleswoman was knowledgable and she had room for the bettas to breath from. but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO she didnt, in fact the opening of the vase was complety covered. UGH!!!! so I come up to her and started to make a quick scan to see if the bettas looked healthy (as if, they look sooooo depressed and i can just hear 'em say "save me") Anyways, first thing she asks is "arent they pretty?" I was like yeah. Then I asked her about the feeding  them. She at least gives them pellets. But still, having them in that set up is wrong.  
 
Finally, I asked her about the water chages, I asked if she changes the water at least once a week.... she laughed and then said why would she want to do that that it is not necessary to make that many changes that the betta is fine. She said that she changes it once a month or it is possibly to even change it once every 2 months...  I almost cried. I then told her I was a proud owner of a betta and that the water should be chagned at least once a week in order to keep him happy, and thats just the beginning of the proper betta care.  
 
What was even sadder was that one of her bettas was absolutely gorgeous. He was a white male with teal streaks on his fins. Oh what a beauty he was also a big guy his body looked like 3 inches... I wanted to ask if she would sell me the betta alone (becuase I only had $10 in my pocket, and she was asking for $30 for the setup)  but I knew that she wouldnt let me have it.... oh another thing that I didnt like about her was that she started to tap on the vase and she said that when you tap on the vase the betta starts to flare (I was thinking, of course becuase you already have the betta in bad conditons, and he is stressed, and also I know from COMMMON SENSE that its not good to do that)
 
oy....  
 
im going to go back tommorrow and try to save that white male. I hope that he is still there.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.... I just cant stand ignorant imcompentant people!!!! agggggh! I'll explain later. Not in the mood to type stuff.

history...havent gone to lecture since we turned in the damn paper (about 2 wks ago).... been going to section... sooo boring and irrevelant... sighs.... when will section end?

im soooooooooooooo tired... the end!

hey Karisma...hell yeah i love your hugs, they give a reasuring feeling, as in everything is going to be alright.... thanks!

what up?


hmmmm... yesterday was nice... i worked, then got off work, and sociaalized my brains out.... yes at last i spent the whole damn day talking and talking, afterwards i seriously didnt feel like talking...lol. anyways it felt so nice, i talked to people who i never get a chance to have good long talks with.

first person:
Markee- she is soooo great! shes a sophomore like me and i met her through living in the dorms last year. shes a theatre major and weirdly enough we have a lot in common, so anyways i hadnt seen her in forever, so it was nice to talk to her, i think we talked for almost an hour about her going to london to study abroad. and in general just about good stuff and good times :)

Elizabeth- i met this girl way even before we were freshmans at UCSD... i met her at summerbridge, but we never had much a chance to really talk, so i just knew her as a girl from bridge. last year i had an occasional hi with her but nothing else. this quarter we have 2 classes together. we have been talking a lot more and its very nice, becuase we have stuff in common and we are always laughing....i havent laughed this much in a real long time, she is definatly good for lifting my spirits. so we were talking for like 2 hrs about guys and stuff. :)

Kelly- YAY!!! i was soooooo excited to see her. i never ever see her and she is one of my fave people here at UCSD. kelly is one of my co-workers at my coffee job. we have the tiltle of being there the longest... lol. anyways i love talking to her becuase again we have an assload in common, and she is very understanding, and we bitch together about the same things. yesterday i was finally able to vent to her about how much my co -worker scott pisses me off :) . and then it sooo happens that he pisses her off too. now i feel better, becuase im not the only one. we bitched for and hour and a half. ;)

Karla- she is one of the newbies at work, and i hadnt met her. so kelly and decided to go finally go see her. she is real nice and shes hispanic... YAY i was happy to see that. anyways we also seem to have stuff in common. good stuff! talked for about 2 hrs... yep good times.


anyways on a sadder note, my last carnival fish died yesterday (chester) , i saw it coming. *sighs*

... i cannot stand scott.... loooong story, but my supervisor is going to talk to him. YES!

im sooooooooo hungry!!!!!

im soooo tired, that i feel that im going to pass out on the desk... damn when will class end?

have i told you how much i HATE philosophy? grrrrrrrrrrrr.....i mean seriuosly i never ever thought that a class could cause me this much pain... my goodness.

i always laughed and made fun of those UCSD students who spent most of their time at the library and then studying all hardcore right before the midterms.... now im one of them... thanks to PHIL..... dangit!

i have actaully have had midterms every week starting 4th week, and my last midterm will be on 7th week, and then ill be home free for about 2 wks... im gonna take advantage of those 2 wks.....












5 more weeks of hell.... i cant wait till june 12th.... yes june 12th... i like that day.

YES! YES! YES!

awwww.... dangit!....... so its been a couple of days since i have written, sowwies....

nothing super exciting has happened in the last days but heres a recap...

my co worker scott..... continues to drive me crazy.... on thursday we got into a nasty fight... i gave him the silent treatment, and well that how it stands right now. im going to stay stubborn becuase i feel what i did was right.

ummmmmm.... the fishes.
so i had named all of them becuase freakin alex had made me.
i cant remember all the days, but i did have 6 fishes not too long ago.
tucker was the first to go. (i dont think it was eating at all)
and then yesterday i started to notice that smark was acting all weird. he kept getting "stuck" behind the filter. i honestly thought that he died everytime i saw him there, but then i realized that maybe smark was looking for some hiding place.
since yesterday was payday for me... i wanted to go get some fish stuff for my fishes.
when i came back around midnight i noticed that sabarro had died. he was floating on the left sde of the tank.
i got sad. i knew that sabarro and smark were close, becuase they were the only silver fishes i had in there so i just knew that smark wasnt going to live much longer. plus, i had come to the conclusion that maybe smark was trying to commit fishy suicide by getting stuck behind the filter... i honestly believe that fish do know what they do.
so anyways... i woke up this morning and guess what?
i found smark dead, and weirdly enough in the same exact corner where sabarro had died... gosh im so sad now :(
on a happier note though i bought a new fish ... a betta... its a long story why, lets just say i saved him.
i really think that Mosaic (my betta) is a very happy betta, i have noticed it doing alot of activity, unlike most betta's i have encountered. this makes me happy to know my fish is happy :)

alrighty this is it for now.

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